Who am I, that the Lord of all the earth
Would care to know my name
Would care to feel my hurt
Who am I, that the bright and morning Star
Would choose to light the way
For my ever wandering heart
Not because of who I am
But because of what You've done
Not because of what I've done
But because of who You are
I am a flower quickly fading
Here today and gone tomorrow
A wave tossed in the ocean
A vapor in the wind
Still You hear me when I'm calling
Lord, You catch me when I'm falling
And You've told me who I am
I am Yours, I am Yours
Who Am I, that the eyes that see my sin
Would look on me with love
and watch me rise again
Who Am I, that the voice that calmed the sea
Would call out through the rain
And calm the storm in me
whom shall i fear
whom shall i fear
i am yours
who am i
sheena seng
fearfully and wonderfully made
Psalm 139
dailies
Sunday, October 15, 2006
-6:47 AM
Hillsong United-The Stand (The Passion)
Sang this song during worship this morning and it touched my heart. Sometimes living in the world makes it hard to stand upright. I fall and I have tumbled. But this song reminded me to surrender to Him once more. Surrendering is an action that takes humility and sometimes it's always hard to swallow my pride. This week i had found myself in a situation that i really want to leave and run away. Run away from all technicalities and human paradoxes. But after chancing upon this video, I believe it's all worth it. All that im going through is all worth it. Thank you Jesus Christ of Nazareth. Forgive me for being so un-perservering, so faith-less at times. Thank you sweet Lord for loving me the same, for understanding and for continuing to shape me in your likeness. I know that being more and more like you does not promise a rosy picture in life. But You have promised me eternal life. You have promised that You will walk this road together with me. You will rescue me. And I know Lord, I am safe in your arms. what can I say Lord, what can i do, but completely offer this heart to You.
Thursday, October 12, 2006
-10:01 AM
Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the man who takes refuge in him.
Psalm 34:8
Crossover Tshirt is Out!!! Today went to meet Jason from the Loudhailer team to get the sample for the ministry shirt and man it's awesome! I've received both white and black sample with the amendments from the previous print, the original white sample that i wasnt too pleased about and a free Loudhailer shirt which was on the house! geez i feel really bad. Coz Jason had earlier given me another Loudhailer shirt (Baptism by fire) and i had to keep asking him to change this and that. It also dint help to know that he was busy at work. Seemed rather stressed by it.. those eye bags gave it away man. But oh wells am rather pleased with the samples and am thankful for the smooth production of the shirts. Was praying about it and IT IS NOW ANSWERED PRAISE THE LORD! Now waiting for the boss to say yes. haha
Anyway i asked Jeremy to model for me and man he's a lousy model. He cant smile for the cam la. And when i asked him to take pics of me in the T, he took the worse shots, either too blur or i look too fat (coz the pic was so blur that it had multiple shots of me.. ARRRRGGHHH) The only thing nice he had done was to agree that the shirt looked really good and he said that i looked really young in the shirt! woohoo! That's my heart throb brother... any takers any one?
Sunday, October 08, 2006
-9:19 PM
Christ was sacrificed once to take away the sins of many people; and he will appear a second time, not to bear sin, but to bring salvation to those who are waiting for him.
Hebrews 9: 28
For the past few days, there were many sweet people who stood by me. They are the ones when you look back at the things they've done or said, it would bring a smile to face and a very warm feeling that tingles in your heart.
I'm glad that YiYing came to church yesterday. It was really a surprise when i peeped at my handphone checking the time while i was busy preparing myself for church. And i had a message. Yiying asked if it will be too late for her to come to church, since service starts at 10 and she probably reach around 10plus. Man my heart jumped! It is never too late to come to church. It is never too late to return to the Father and celebrate! And so she came. This was her first time at service and I prayed it made an impact upon her. I pray that the Holy Spirit would convict her of God's power and his majesty. And i have this very special person to thank. Coz i belived she did made an impact in YiYing's life as well.
She may be the rara papaya in cell, the one who never fails to disturb me bout my flabs but she is also one who takes up the initiative to talk to a stranger and make them feel welcomed. She cracks them up by being a fool in front of others. She carries a charisma, a fragrance that people around her just feel so comfortable. She was the one who spoke to Yiying after cell, and took care of her while i'm away. She was the one who took away the "shy" barrier in YiYing and helped her integrate better into the ministry. She's Rachel Ng, only 15 but with a heart and passion for God. Dearie, i believe that what you've done will not only impact just YiYing's life, but it will be passed on to the people that both of you lead in the future. The Vast Army. *hugs*
Because of some personal encounters that i had this week that i dread mentioning, it was also sweet to know that out of it all, you know you have a brother to look after you, to protect you. And what's more i have 2! 2 heart throbs. :) As i told them about what happened, Jovin said "Dont worry, you have 2 body guards to protect you if anything should happen." He said this with such chivalrous attitude. Jeremy, " Wah if that person ever do that, i will go up to him and scold him lor.. I dont care.." Of coz the going up to the person to scold him is not exactly what i expected him to say but nevertheless, i feel very protected by these two little boys who have grown to be men. I just melted when they said that.
In this generation of pervertion and distortion of manhood, i see the warrior in both of them. Like what Eric Ludy said, Warriors who are more then just the defender of Truth and Justice and a champion for the weak. A warrior who will protect what is sacred and innocent in womanhood. Thank you sweet Lord for bringing these two warriors in my life. For allowing them to protect me when im weak. To love me when i need. And to guard what is sacred within me.
Thursday, October 05, 2006
-8:38 AM
I will give them a heart to know me, that I am the Lord. They will be my people, and I will be their God," says the Lord.
Jeremiah 24:7
This is realy bad. I have a South Asian test tomorrow and i'm happily blogging away. It is also bad coz for the past few days I have been snacking alot. Due to the haze i couldnt get out of the house to have a run, so the past few days i would normally find myself walking up and down my hallway.. to my fridge and to my seat and back to the cabinets to either search for IT or to think whether i should have IT. Yes it is IT. IT that made me feel so bad right now as i consume IT while blogging. How terrible IT made me feel for the past few minutes!
Ok u see folks im not angry bout me eating IT because IT will add inches to the different parts of my body to where IT deem happy to deposit. I'm not those girls who pursue the fashionable slender ideal. I'm not those who worried about how those salad dressings will make me not fit in a size 0 dress. I'm happy with my current size. Full stop. I've come to realised that if i dont respect my own body, trying hard to fit myself into the so called mould that society has, I would just enslaved myself to society. But (back to the point) I'm sad coz IT has a very high tendency of clogging up my artileries, perhaps up my cholestrol, increase my blood pressure and sugars.. IT is the oh-so sinful kerropok. Ranging from tapioca chips from malaysia (my mum bought it), crispy indonesian kerropok that has this bitter sweet taste and chempadak.. Bleahz.
But oh wells... at least IT is very gratifying at such wee hours of the night or when you just need to do some mouth exercise. So thank you IT for accompanying me through the night.. haha. I know i have a weird relationship with IT.
Anway, to all my dearies who are having your exams now, all the best yah? Press on and fight on for the Lord! :) loving you all to bits and pieces.
